And then you remember...

I'm tired...yeah, I know, its 10:43pm, I have to get up at 5:15 (ok, 5:30 because I'll snooze) and I'm sitting here on this computer typing...but something must be said...surely someone wants to read it. I get up in the morning, tired, nay, exhausted at the thought of taking another shower, putting on my makeup and getting ready again for another day at school...don't get me wrong, I like what I do, I miss my girls more than I can say but I like what I do...it's the ideal situation for our family right now...but lately, I've been complaining, not to anyone mind you, but to myself. Yes, I'm admitting that I talk to myself...whatever, you do too, you just might not admit it to thousands (OK, 10's) of people! 

Anyway, I've been complaining to myself, not enough time, not enough money, not clean enough, nothing fits, no time to run, no time to run errands, no time!!! Just before this, I went into the girls' rooms, I do this every night before I go to bed, just to check...really just to take one more look at them, breathe them in before I collapse on my bed. They are so peaceful, so beautiful, so close to our God...these are the times when I speak to our Father...these are the times I feel closest to him...it's almost like this is how he sees us, peaceful, pure, open...and quiet enough and still enough to receive his grace and mercy and love.

I am gratefully blessed by these angels God has given me...grateful for their precious hearts and giving spirits...they already have Jesus with them and I see it when Graelyn gives her best friend Abby hugs over and over throughout the day at Ms. Kathy's and when Gwen volunteers to share everything I've packed in her lunch on Museum School days...she wants to share with my mom...and she even wants to share candy corn...her favorite fall candy.

I need to be more like them...I need to dole out the hugs and share my candy corn, again and again, just like my girls.

I promise not to preach anymore this week...maybe this month:)