Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Church on a Tuesday

Yeah, yeah, it's Tuesday but hey, I'm Presbyterian, that's how I roll...anyway, take a read...as I was prepping for my 5K this past weekend (and I suspect will continue to listen to as I prep for my 10K)...I found myself having church at 5am with an 11lb. weenie dog...this was the best church I've had in a long time. Don't get me wrong, I LOVE my church, I love our pastor, Pastor Frank (he's from Alabama and came over for the 1st Bama game...the man might as well be family to Seth and I!!!) but I rarely sit still the entire service. With a 2 year old and a 4 1/2 year old...entertainment and "shhing" is my not so favorite passtime on Sunday mornings. I digress...take a read:
I tied myself with wire
To let the horses run free
Playing with the fire
Until the fire played with me

The stone was semi-precious
We were barely conscious
Two souls too cool to be
In the realm of certainty
Even on our wedding day

We set ourselves on fire
Oh God, do not deny her
It's not if I believe in love
But if love believes in me
Oh, believe in me

At the moment of surrender
I folded to my knees
I did not notice the passers-by
And they did not notice me

I've been in every black hole
At the altar of the dark star
My body's now a begging bowl
That's begging to get back, begging to get back
To my heart
To the rhythm of my soul
To the rhythm of my unconsciousness
To the rhythm that yearns
To be released from control

I was punching in the numbers at the ATM
I could see in the reflection
A face staring back at me
At the moment of surrender
Of vision over visibility
I did not notice the passers-by
And they did not notice me

I was speeding on the subway
Through the stations of the cross
Every eye looking every other way
Counting down 'till the pentecost

At the moment of surrender
Of vision of over visibility
I did not notice the passers-by
And they did not notice me

Good stuff...I think I have many moments of surrender...I'm a bit of a control freak and God knows it...I'm constantly surrendering...at least he believes in me to continually accept my surrender.

2 comments:

KJ Druyvesteyn said...

I know! I always want to be in control too. Of course, even my "best attempts" are pathetic, at best. When will I ever learn that?!

Sarah said...

Thanks for sharing this with us, Ang!